rant thingy

[Rin-chan]

Yeah... I didn't know where to put this :|

But, basically it is about my self esteem. My self esteem, it's horrible. Sometimes I get random thoughts at school to just go die because I feel as if I have no reason to live. Sometimes I want to cut myself, but...it doesn't help I know it won't.

And the compliments people give me, it doesn't help me. Not at all. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror, I see a pretty girl. Sometimes I see an ugly girl who's not deserving to live right now.

I feel like smashing the mirror whenever I see myself so it feels like I've killed myself in a way.

Yes, I am suicidal. Yes, I am depressed. Yes, I am 13. But, whatever. I don't know what to do about it.

 

[Proxima Centauri B]

Thats realy sad. Im 24 and I suffer from alot of the same self esteem issues, minus the whole suicidal thing. Im not used to getting compliments or anything because most people IRL think im weird, and even have the nerve to say things about that to my face. It dosent make me feel good at all. Ithink you should talk to someone about this because feeling suicidal is very serious and I think you should get some help.

 

[Pariah]

[video=youtube;QGJuMBdaqIw]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw[/video]
You're not the only one...this songs makes me feel better all the time.PM or VM if you need to talk

 

[Rin-chan]

Songs don't make me feel better, but thanks anyways.

@Neoflare- talking to someone doesn't appear to help either; ive done it many times.

 

[Parma]

is there any way that you can get some sort of mental help or is that outlawed?

 

[Rin-chan]

Well, first off, my parents don't even know how I feel.

Second off. even if I told my parents they would just say it's teen hormones.

Third off, getting mental help for me is way to expensive even if I told my parents and they believed me.

 

[Ghost]

Moved to blog.