Thanatos-Zero
Balmarian Mad Scientist
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Greetings. I'm Thanatos-Zero, the Archangel of Sins but for real my name is Christoph and I'm a german. I´m a spriter on Sprites.INC, but now lets go deeper in the story.
So where should I start to tell my life? Oh yes the childhood. I was a very active child with the ADS (AttentionDefizitSyndrom). I wasn´t able to understand everyone till to my fourth birthday, because of polyps in the area between my nose and my ears. For many years I was a victem of the society, because I was too different from others. So I´ve gone through many hardships and was abounded and abused by many people, which I've trusted and called my friends. Today I know, why I was so much different. I was born with the asperger syndrome, which shows me that I'm a half-autismn.
To makes things short, I've called me Archangel of Sins because I feel for no aparent reason great guilts for things, which I haven't done.
For example I call a fellow with the telefone and we have a great time while speaking, then I say to him, that he shall call back to me, if he has time to spend with me. And what happens? He don't call back and than I fell me like someone, who has done something, which cannot be forgiven. So it happens often, if don't get any feedbacks or answer or just attention by others, that I fell into deep depressions which results sometimes into Self-injury. Don't worry... I don't use knifes or sharp things in general. The only thing what I do, is to slap myself many times into my face. Also to mention is, that I'm not able to handle stress under pressure or in a situation, in which I don't know what the other wants from me. It also anticipate me many times from spriting itself.
Well, Life is not fair isn't it? However I am now under threrapy for several months and I am making proccess.
I have joined this board, because I´m a massive fan of the Special Manga and the first two generations of Pokemon.
About the anime. When I was a child I loved it, but as today I hate it for the only reason because Satoshi (Ash Ketchum) cannot mature and hand over the main character role to other male protagonists.
I feel sorry though for Kasumi, Haruka, Hikari and the many other characters in Pokemon. I really love the girls.
So where should I start to tell my life? Oh yes the childhood. I was a very active child with the ADS (AttentionDefizitSyndrom). I wasn´t able to understand everyone till to my fourth birthday, because of polyps in the area between my nose and my ears. For many years I was a victem of the society, because I was too different from others. So I´ve gone through many hardships and was abounded and abused by many people, which I've trusted and called my friends. Today I know, why I was so much different. I was born with the asperger syndrome, which shows me that I'm a half-autismn.
To makes things short, I've called me Archangel of Sins because I feel for no aparent reason great guilts for things, which I haven't done.
For example I call a fellow with the telefone and we have a great time while speaking, then I say to him, that he shall call back to me, if he has time to spend with me. And what happens? He don't call back and than I fell me like someone, who has done something, which cannot be forgiven. So it happens often, if don't get any feedbacks or answer or just attention by others, that I fell into deep depressions which results sometimes into Self-injury. Don't worry... I don't use knifes or sharp things in general. The only thing what I do, is to slap myself many times into my face. Also to mention is, that I'm not able to handle stress under pressure or in a situation, in which I don't know what the other wants from me. It also anticipate me many times from spriting itself.
Well, Life is not fair isn't it? However I am now under threrapy for several months and I am making proccess.
I have joined this board, because I´m a massive fan of the Special Manga and the first two generations of Pokemon.
About the anime. When I was a child I loved it, but as today I hate it for the only reason because Satoshi (Ash Ketchum) cannot mature and hand over the main character role to other male protagonists.
I would love to see him EXTERMINATED with extreme prejudice.
