sonia's slumbering weald

kinda surprising at how good i'm sticking to consistently writing here recently, considering i'm generally bad in being in the routine of doing anything. i dunno, i don't have many updates to stuff i've been talking about prior for today. i've finished both video projects i was working on, i'm still stuck on that grookey hunt for my shiny living dex because i got demotivated by how long it was taking, and now i'm kinda stuck trying to decide what i wanna do next bc i'm done my current projects.

i was thinking about working on a seesaw x sonia solo fanzine, but then i need to decide if i wanna do it physical or digital, and also how long i want it to be, and if i am doing physical copies i'd need to do an interest check and learn how the process of shipping out stuff like that even works, and i think my anxiety would be acting up BAAD trying to do something like that. but we'll see, i'll probably start working on artwork soon for it then decide nearer the end if i do want it to be physical or digital, or maybe even both? i dunno.

my birthday is coming up soon, so i'm trying to choose between two ideas for art i want to commission for myself from one of my fav artists, either sordsoni aquarium date or art of my palentines day alts for them together. but there's another artist i'm considering for the palentines alts, but i think if that happens or not will depend on if i end up selling any commissions before my birthday, since i only really have money to commission one or the other right now. honestly, i woke up in kinda a bad mood today so i've been trying to hold myself back from commissioning the art for my birthday early, and to be fair there's only a couple of weeks left anyway so i might as well wait (for my birthday art i'm planning to go to fusenryo, who delivers same day as they accept the request on their skeb page)

i'm still waiting for 1 commission back, and i'm really excited for it but i am getting kinda antsy since it's nearing the deadline date for the request on skeb, so i imagine i'm probably going to wake up to it one of these days. lol
 
i've been kinda tired over the past couple of weeks. i dunno if i'd say i really think things r getting worse again but i'm just feeling rather up and down mood wise. it's just some pressure and stuff that i'm struggling with. i'm preparing to hopefully go back to college in august and get things back on track, but actually working on that application is just something i keep putting off, and i have a really REALLY bad habit of lying about things and saying i've already done them so i won't get scolded by my family or other people in my life for how much i hesitate and put things off.

i worry a lot about the future, so a huge majority of the time, i find it easier to live in the moment and just not think about it, even if that isn't really the best way to handle the stresses of life. i've always found it hard to pick up new things and adjust to them. when i first started attending college in person after my first year had been online, i struggled to get used to it but it became a lot easier once i was used to it. when i had my first ever job, i found it hard to get settled into it, but after a week or two i was starting to find it easy (but unfortunately, it didn't last long because the place shut down due to poor management)

to some extent, in my brain i find it hard to grapple with the necessity of getting a job. i'm in a kinda stage and mindset where i understand it's necessary to survive, but i don't like how much time it's going to inherently take away from me doing what i love until i can go through the proper studies and attempt to secure a job in the industry of art, if that even ever happens. but at the same time, i found that being in a job, while i had less time to draw, it actually weirdly motivated me to draw more. i think it was my brain trying to balance out how much i hated my job and how much it stressed me out because of how hands on it had me interacting with people and how badly it was affecting my physical health, but that was around the time i actually really got into making content for and talking about sordward/sonia as a ship, after i had been kinda quiet about it for a year or so out of fear that people would dislike it and think badly of me over it. obviously, even in that year or so i still occasionally posted them in a way that'd indicate that i viewed them romantically every now and again, but i really didn't gain the confidence to go public with it until i was just about to prep to start that job and made the decision to quietly do one of my many, many movings of social media accounts.

but anyway i dunno, some days i wish i'll just wake up and be able to make a living off of my art as is right now, but i know it's never going to be as easy as that. sorry, this one got kinda sentimental and sad but it was nice to write out just to get it off my chest; it feels kinda silly to admit how much comfort i find in dumb things such as drawing two fictional characters kissing, but i guess that's just the kind of person i am
 
3 days until my birthday and weirdly enough the dread that i was starting to feel before is kinda starting to go away. i still have a lot of weird complicated feelings about ageing and stuff, but i'm just trying to keep myself excited at the prospect of the celebration and the art i'm commissioning for my birthday. speaking of it's hard not to send that request through skeb early. i'm best just waiting because of fusenryo's very fast delivery time so i'll wake up to it on the 10th, but now that i have the request written out and all of my references compiled, it's really tempting to just send it early. but i've waited this long so i can wait a little longer! i'm excited to share it once i receive it on my birthday, as well as any other art i may possibly receive for it.

dunno if i ever posted it once i received it anywhere, but since i mentioned earlier in this thread that i was expecting art of my self insert oc, holly, and nessa back soon, here~! it was delivered sometime last week but i just forgot to post about it here.

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art credit goes to osaosa_kouzyou on twitter!
 
it's been a while, but i'm back!

hopefully after taking a long break i'll finally get back to my swsh shiny livingdex project. i got demotivated majorly for it, bc of how long the hunt for that third grookey was taking, but i think i'm ready to go back to it now. maybe i would've sooner but i've been spending a lot of time playing the splatoon dlc. i'm having a lot of fun with it, and the ingame timer for the runs has partially got me back into speedrunning. no super insane runs yet, but hopefully i'll be working towards those 5 minute runs and stuff that i've seen on twitter.

i remember a while back i was kinda stressed about commissions bc i had taken on too many at the same time, and i ended up refunding two of them bc i didn't have the time or energy to work on them, but in recent times that i've reopened commissions i've been only taking on 1 or 2 slots at a time, and even if it isnt ideal financially it's been a lot easier for me to handle

i dunno what else to say here, maybe i'll write a longer post later talking about things but its 12pm and i've only been up for half an hour so my brain is fried
 
i went out with friends today for the first time in a while so i thought i'd write a little about today here! we went to glasgow which, despite living a relatively fast train ride away from(only around, half an hour i wanna say?) i rarely go to!

our first stop was this one store i wanted to go to bc they usually have the newest volumes of the pokemon manga even when other stores closer to me dont seem to yet, so i went there but i found out they also sold individual pokemon cards!! i was looking to buy sordward and shielberts eng fullart anyway, so i thought i'd shoot my shot there! i was super embarrassed when i told the cashier i was looking for fullarts of trainers i like and he asked who and i had to say sordward and shielbert >_< but i threw sonia in there for good measure as well! surprisingly, even though he was sure they had it it seemed they'd already sold it, which kinda surprised me (in a good way!!) woah whos the other scottish seesaw duo fan??? i wanna be friends with them!! but alas, even if i couldn't get seesaw's fullart i got that one boltund card with sonia on it which is super neat, bc that's one of my favs.

i didn't end up buying anything in other stores (aside from some pocky i just couldnt help but pick up) but it was a lot of fun to just walk around. and then the main highlight of the night, i'll spoiler tag it, but warnings for mentions of alcohol/drinking!)

the main reason for our trip was that it was a friends birthday recently, and he wanted to go to this bar. it was a really neat place, it was an arcade and a bar, and there were a lot of fun games. the interior was AWESOME. i can't emphasise it, i seriously wish i could've taken more photos of it, but it was all spraypainted and the lighting complimented it so well and made it a treat to look at. i wasn't planning to drink, but i ended up with two because my friend bought them and didn't like them. the cocktails in this bar are based on video game characters due to it also being an arcade, and the two drinks i tried were based on amy rose from sonic and kirby respectively! i have to say though, the kirby one was by far the best. it was really cool to look at even aside from the taste, they used one of those flashing colour changing ice cubes in it, infact i literally had someone ask me what cocktail it was because they were interested in it because of how it looked. probably one of the coolest places i've been in a long time, i just wish the place didn't open so late bc we left around an hour and a half after it opened >_< not that i mind bc i dont like being out too late anyway.

all in all i had a lot of fun! here's a photo i took a photo of my cards while i was out when we sat down to get something to eat!!
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(hopefully i made the image small enough that its ok to include in the post, if not lmk and i'll spoiler it!)
also, we went to a five guys restaurant and they had crayons and paper to draw on and put on a corkboard, so i drew sordward and sonia and put them up there :p
 
I’m happy to hear you had such a lovely time with your friends, Sonia! I also had a meetup with mine recently and it helped my mental state a lot, so I’m glad to see the prophecy is true for both of us (LOL). Congrats on your cards too! Pokemon card collecting is sooo addicting (and yes, I have the full art of my boys too). I recently bought that one with Reshiram surrounded by roses because it looked like an early 2000s gothic shoujo manga cover (you get the feel, right?)

Do you have a picture of the doodle you did at Five Guys also? I’d love to see!
 
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I recently bought that one with Reshiram surrounded by roses because it looked like an early 2000s gothic shoujo manga cover (you get the feel, right?)
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i hadnt seen this card until now but i get what you mean, the description is spot on! what a beautiful card.i need to look into collecting more pokemon cards, i just need to buy a binder or something for them first, cuz rn i mainly collect cards for trainers i like and display them in my room (though, i wanna get into toploader deco for my fav cards soon!)

was mostly a sordward doodle but there's a little sonia head cameo lol..drawing on such small paper is hard esp w crayons rather than a more precise pen or pencil.
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ship weeks are my mortal enemy, because as much as i love them conceptually, they never wind up working out for me

maybe it's because i put working on stuff off, but to be fair i draw fast enough that under most circumstances, i'd be able to draw a piece each day no problem!

but it always seems like SOMETHING comes up. being busy with various appointments this week, and then yesterday i planned to finally catch up but i wound up getting really sick (i'm slightly better now, but the body aches r still BAD). i'm not even really upset about it, i just find it kinda funny how whenever i try to participate in a ship week a ton of irl stuff gets in the way no matter how much i prepare for it beforehand.

hopefully i'll catch up today, i was meant to be going out somewhere but considering how unwell i am im hoping i'll be able to cancel
 
it's been a little while! i've been kinda getting a bit inactive on the forums in general but i wanted to come in here and write a bit to update because i'm doing pretty well recently!

a while back i hosted seesaw twins week, and even if i didn't break my curse of not being able to prep pieces for every day of the week, i was happy with what i did get done. to be honest i kinda expected to be the only one to participate but i wasn't! and that made me really, really happy. even if it was still a very small event i liked being able to at least bring about a temporary resurgence in art of them.

as for other stuff! earlier this year i applied to go back to college, a huge step for me considering how long it'd been since i dropped back. i don't think i ever talked abt it here but i got onto my art and design course with an unconditional offer. that's part of why i've been so inactive, i'm so Not used to being out and about anymore that it's just draining all of my energy (maybe i should finally log into the forums on my phone :chansey:) but regardless, that's not a bad thing! once i get back into the swing of things hopefully i'll be a bit more active again.

i dunno, things are just rly starting to look up. i've been getting into writing again a bit recently, though nothing rly that i'm going to share here. honestly, a fic i wrote recently that i'm the most happy with is a fairly oddparents fic i wrote yesterday, abt the idea of dale dimmadome and vicky being friends before the whole. yk. her locking dale in a lemonade factory for 7 years incident. it's a short one, but i'll link it here for if anyone is interested!

i need to get a move on on planning other projects though, i was meant to be hosting a shielbert ship week in october but i haven't even thought up any prompts at all for it. but hopefully i should get that done asap ! :yay: i gotta rep just how many shielbert ships are among my fav ships ever, shielbert/sonia piers/shielbert rose/shielbert etc etc...i dunno; i like hosting dumb self indulgent stuff like that even without the expectation of others participating.

i hope everyone here is doing well! as i said hopefully i should get back into the habit of checking in more often...i miss talking here a lot, even if it was just me rambling on my profile posts if i didn't have any particular threads i wanted to put my thoughts in on at the time
 
over the recent many months of this year, i've been getting into modding sword and shield! just easy stuff, like text mods, editing teams, editing models textures, etc etc but it's something i'm having a lot of fun with!

my first real experience modding the text was kinda a bit of a silly concept? i had watched the ai generated text undertale/deltarune mods and decided: i wanna do that for the swsh postgame! but it ended up not rly panning out bc it was kinda a Nightmare to work on and honestly with recent stuff surrounding ai i just feel. i can't in good faith continue that mod, as funny as it was. that and: i was using inferkit for it and that shut down. so as silly as that was based on it's crudeness alone, it kinda got scrapped. i still use screenshots from it as reaction images sometimes though LOL

my second one i believe was actually a team mod, based on a kinda insane sordward team that my friend dramps came up with! i only modded the first battle with sordward since that was really all i wanted to do: mod it into the game then battle against him to see how difficult it was. and honestly, my team was SLIGHTLY underleveled, but i think even aside from that it would've still been fairly difficult. really, just more simple stuff.

then recently i had a dumb thought, bc of the [thing] written by vivziepop meme where it's just adding a bunch of profanity to things. and i started working on one of those for sword and shield. it's incomplete, but i definitely made more progress on it than i usually do these things. what was originally meant to be a text mod turned into me also editing textures. honestly it lowkey turned into a breaking bad parody somehow. idk. but it also led to me now having a very funny standalone mod where everything is the same but sordward is covered in blood. honestly maybe i should've released that publicly for halloween but it slipped my mind.

after that, the next one was the she/her shielbert mod! i'm a huge fan of the headcanon of shielbert using she/her pronouns and generally just being a girl, so i modded sword and shield to replace the dialogue that referred to her with he/him pronouns, as well as changing instances where the twins are referred to as "those red and blue guys" to be "those red and blue twins" a bit of a silly mod, but still one i enjoyed making and usually use when i play now nonetheless!

after that there was, the gunther mod. it's not rly a model replacement, though i'd love to do that someday, it was simply a texture flip to give sordward a green suit and to change the name for his textboxes to say "sordward...?" with the implication being that gunther is impersonating him for...some reason. i also came up with an original team for gunther for this that i added eternatus to, because i am of the firm belief there would be NO gun wolf. eternatus IS the gun.
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and lastly, the most recent one: a really dumb text mod where nothing is different besides sordward and shielbert have tiktok brainrot for some reason. hopefully it's okay to link the posts i made on twitter here because i think you really have to see it to understand how insane it is.

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Hi, Sonia! Just dropping in LOL. I'm in the unique position of 1) having not played through any of SwSh's postgame or DLC (sorry! if it makes you feel any better, I haven't gotten to my older sister's Battle Subway in BW ever), and 2) not knowing what any of that in the mod means LMFAO... so I guess it is simply canon to me now, I hope you're alright with that LOL. I'm glad you've been enjoying yourself with modding SwSh, I think it's fun to tinker around like that! Though I have done lots of things with homebrew or whatever, my only real experience with making game mods is trying to translate a niche DS game into English, I couldn't quite figure out how to fit text in the character limit... Hope things are going well for you otherwise!!
 
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it has been a long time but i keep telling myself i need to get back into being more active here and what better way to go about that than to start blogging again now that i'm done with college until august?

i never rly know where to start on these things. in august i'll be starting on year 1 of my art degree, so that's exciting to say the least. though as interesting as it should be there's not really much i have to say on the matter; college is fun though i suppose! not even as much with the friends i made this year, but recently i've been going out more with the college friends i made the other year there! but on thursday i went out bowling with my friends from the current course before i went out drinking later with my other friend group and that was pretty fun! i was a lot worse at bowling than i remembered being last time i went lol but it was fun regardless! we all set our names to dumb stuff that very much was not our names (i went with sordward and for the photos for the board i just put my sordward plushie since i had him with me)

and speaking of my sordward plushie, i'm hoping that over summer i can make more merch for my ita bag! at one point i put together some sordward badges based on the official pkmn trainer can badges, but i might make some other badges of my various other artist of he and sonia. the bag is centred around them obviously, with some shielbert merch because what are they without their third wheel? i may also make some extra fake official sordward badges since i didn't own any of the can badges at the time so i was working based on images i saw online so it was a bit off. not too badly so i suppose, but either way i'll probably keep the original two in there with the updated ones. i ended up buying an a3 bag since most of my sketchbooks for college were a3 before realizing i did not have enough to fill that window with to justify the a3 size, so that's the goal i'm setting to myself!!

as for art stuff, i'm trying to get back into doing commissions again! i stopped doing them earlier this year because it was mostly my ych ones that were selling and i was getting super burnt out from doing those and kinda just wanted to do unique personal works for a bit. so far i have only opened a new type for character illustrations with a rendered background for the sake of background practice. backgrounds are interesting to me because i can be kinda 50/50 on them and if they turn out ok or not, but i think i'm getting better. it's nice to be in the practice of doing more atmospheric pieces, and especially with the recent colress x zinzolin fixation it gives me an excuse to draw colder backgrounds and i get to have a lot of fun with colours when i do that! (though, a lot of my pieces end up having that very blue/purple palette anyway even when i'm not drawing backgrounds or colder environments)

recently i've been getting back into playing genshin impact again. it's not really occupying most of my brain, i don't think i'll ever escape the constant sordward fixation, but it's been fun! i've actually been taking notes in a little notebook i got as a gift from one of my college friends about how i'm going to build my characters, what i need to grind for etc. i dunno i like being organized! i've been oddly burnt out with logging into pokemon masters everyday but i'm going through and finally updating my pokemon masters spreadsheet and hoping that'll motivate me to start playing again so i can keep that up to date with all of the info on the characters i have and where i am with levelling them!
 
re: modding thoughts from late last year

i've been thinking about working on a swsh postgame abridged mod. just something silly with dumb dialogue where i can air out basically...every joke i've made about the postgame? but there's a lot of those,

somehow the mod will probably end up being sordsoni-coded and every shielbert ship ever coded (or at very least from things i talked about with my friends, the BL ones so probably like piersshielbert roseshielbert gordieshielbert and maybe leonshielbert. maybe more). actually i should just make shielbert like. inverse ramona flowers. he's the evil ex and he has seven not-evil exes or something like that. i can't lie writing out this dumb update for the sake of it is kinda giving me actual ideas for this mod.

i did a graphics mod because it was a bit in the swsh written by vivziepop joke mod that sordward was just covered in blood and it's never explained and nobody ever brings it up, it's just kinda treated as if it's normal. if i do my swsh abridged mod i'll probably use that graphics mod again but who knows maybe i will elaborate in this mod but i think it's probably funnier if i don't and it's the same deal: just treated as normal.

in other things, recently another artist on tumblr has been drawing shielbert x piers and it really surprised me (in a good way!). i love them but i feel bad because i don't actively make art of them anymore in favour of posting sordsoni, so it's nice to know there's now someone else interested in them and actively drawing them as i used to. i fear it's actually gotten me checking tumblr again despite tumblr being a platform i admittedly just am not a huge fan of using because i have so few active friends there (this is a hint if anyone is active on tumblr and wants to be mutuals to give me an excuse to use it frequently again...)
 
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